Cold Sweat

I awaken to the vibrations of my phone, hopefully it might be her, it is her but its not her I wonder if she has completely pulled the plug this time. I close one eye shut and squinting through the other one I unlock my phone. 3 missed calls 2 texts and 3 BBM conversations, “definitely she dropped one of these” is what i said to myself. Glancing through them all I noticed none were from her. In one move I hopped out of bed and took four steps exactly to the door, I turned on the lights and moved further into the bathroom to freshen up. As I scrubbed thoroughly on my teeth I heard my phone ring again... I dashed back into the room and reached for my phone and guess what.? It was the girl I met at the house party. With an emphatic hiss and sigh i slammed the phone on the bed and walked back to the bathroom. Eventually i rinsed my mouth and dropped onto the toilet seat and then wandered into the place where everything revolves around me and where I have the power to influence the script... I wondered into my subconscious. Faint pictures in particular order riddled my mind I was in love once again and I knew it. The images i saw too faint to ascertain but so intense to be a fallacy she said I hadn’t done much to please her, she said I rested on my laurels is what I bellowed to a surprisingly concerned handful of people; rage, insecurity, fear, all mustered into one emotion caused me to surprise myself. I became less audible and my words slurred I notice a tear had crept out of my left eye and I dashed away from the people and ran to sit isolated back to back under the tree. With my head in my hands I wept.. And then something happened I heard a sound I was so accustomed to it overrode everything and then the sound became louder, louder and then i snapped it was my phone and this time I walked slowly to the room thinking the girl from the house party had tried to call me back.. I picked up my phone and it read 2 missed calls I clicked on it and lo it was her not her, but her... My journey to more feelings in less days continued