New work: Watching them Watch us

Sitting at the table enstrangled by her beauty, surrounded by snooty couples and jeered by the smooth melody being played by the house band I knew for sure that this one time I would be unable to fight my subconscious and I would eventually slip away into my world, I had tried my best not to do so but being the shy person that I am it was always comforting for me to do so growing up. It helped me face my issues in a unique way, it helped to my first dance as a teenager and made me more self in-touch it also ultimately transformed me into the ladies man I was then. So I was always going to fade away it was just a matter of time, so I tried to strike a balance an uneven balance I let my gaurds down and my world with utmost disregard for my wishes took over me.

I looked into her eyes one more time and her grin was too much to bear she sat opposite me and the lighting in the room reflected gloriously on her fair skin her eyes white and clear fierce as usual her bust unconcealable with the polyester top and fitted jacket she wore, there was something about her today she looked amazing she always did, but today she drove me insane I was excited and I appreciated her beauty for once... It was a good sign. "Can u give me a minute I asked" why do u want to go she replied, and I insisted I be excused. Walking down the halls being stared at by the nosy people seated strategically around the hall I managed to walk out of the building, coming outside a chilly breeze slapped across my chest it followed with a cold chill that ran up my spine to the backk of fmy head,I sighed and took a deep breath in, by this time I had reached for my pocket to pull out my B&H 10 pack I pulled out the lucky stick closed my eyes and lit away. With the first drag and my eyes closed I felt the tension leave my body as fast as the DLR train from W'wich Arsenal and at that time I knew I had 5 mins to indulge in my fantasy world without any distractions, it would be jus me my thoughts, the breeze and the cigarrette in my hand. I drift into this world a bit too much these days so to keep it under control, for once i declined it.

Then I thought to myself was I ready to make this step, to send out this promise what if things go badly wrong and then I decided to forget about this (When I say this I mean the relationship) but I couldnt at this time maybe I was spineless or maybe I just knew my future lied with her. By this time I had wasted half of the ciggarrette with another drag I felt like I had taken a sip of courage potion and I mustered up the courage, I immidiately dropped the cigarrette on the floor and stepped on it with my flat black shoes and looked up at the English flag and made a silent vow. I barged through the doors and then walked with purpose like when the delivery guy rings the bell and has your pizza. I ignored the stares from the rich people who wandered what I was doing there, I crept behind her and dropped something on the floor next to her chair. I sat down and grinned at her, she smiled and said "whats ur problem abi?"In my mind I had done the most romantic thing in the world, But I was wrecked by nerves I was shaking inside of me I was hoping that she liked it, I wanted her to feel the hidden meaning of the gift. I replied "I think you dropped something on the floor she turned to look on the floor and then looked back at me with excitment and those eyes that melt my heart to peices and confirm to me that I would not have the courage to ever leave her, the grin she wore that no one else dared to. This lady has me on lock i sighed and thought to myself. She looked at me and pierced my soul with her smile I was shattered I was broken without her saying a single word, I had officially had my second best moment with her.. My Journey to more feelings in less days had just gained momentum.